Autumn Leaf!!!!

I am withered and old,
Devoid of the joy and soul,

I fly around with my brother air
Seeking solace in some lonely chair,

Mother Nature announced my end
When she blew her autumn clarion,

My life has been a meandering river
Twists and turns with a few rocks in between,

Alas!! A human picks me up
Writes three beautiful words on me,
"I love you! "

Life and emotions play a clever game
For I became autumn leaf the messenger of love!

Let The Tears Flow!!

The salty taste of those big beady drops from our tear glands, well sometimes they taste bitter, sometimes they taste sweet and sometimes well plain salty. Well confused?? hehe......let me elaborate, I have no intention to explore the culinary angles of the tears but the factors which stimulate it in us and why sometimes we refrain from it...anger, frustration, joy, sadness, laughter and millions of feelings maybe attached with it. The human being is a self-aware mammal, and therefore crying comes naturally to it.

Most of the time tear comes to us when we feel that emotional CLOT in us, yeah I am sure each of us is familiar with it. The feeling can be extremely beautiful or exactly vice versa. I am half-confused whether I should club anger, frustration or sadness together or leave them alone, because tears shed by them maybe indifferent but the intensity of emotions behind them are miles apart from each other.

Science says, “crying is beneficial to health and mental well-being". Then why does society have to stop from people from letting that CLOT out, the emotions inside us, whatever they maybe always want to be let out. Am not suggesting that fill up buckets of tears when you are feeling something but let it out, it’s better that way. I know the world is selfish and it's hard to say things but my friends it's not wrong to cry. Since, birth we are asked to stop crying and get a hold of ourselves that is perfectly all right, but parents, teachers and all those who help us in evolving as a person maybe sometimes you should evaluate the situation and let the emotions flow.

I know many who would quickly contradict me saying crying makes you weaker, your emotions are an open book and you have no control on yourself. I would like to ask them, in what exactly are they taking pride in, that they are strong, stone hearted cold hearted beasts who have locked away their emotions in the depths of their ice-cold heart or a hollow individual who feels everything inside and can't let it out.

in the process of writing this post, I realised there is not much to evaluate in the feelings behind tears because tears is a gift from god which is a lifeline for us in the worst or the best of the conditions, people might often say that they feel better after shedding a few tears but the same population might be afraid to declare or in better words endorse tears.....

suicides, murder and several things have become a bane to the society, but maybe the society needs to learn that they need to first readily first accept emotions of all kinds and maybe instil a sense of confidence in people who require it. Maybe it should lend a shoulder when someone wants to CRY their heart out!!!
PS: I have been gone a while from blogosphere it’s good to be back...

Samaritan or Stalker !!!

I have seen several people suffering from this enigma; I feel it is an emotion which no person can understand. I am not very sure this post has a direction but it definitely has a purpose, I understand that people often try to connect with the one they care about. But the sheer inability of those who are cared about to understand this situation is mind baffling.

There are several ways to identify personalities like these, for example they may not be the most charismatic personality around but they do have a presence, they often try to make conversations with you and if you give them a hint of your friendship they try to rip out all the classic details out of you. Now you might say these are the characteristics of a stalker, who is obsessed with the person he/she stalks.

But I say maybe we should try and understand the thin line a person straddles upon when he is obsessed about somebody and when he is caring about somebody. I am not saying he might be the nicest person around but maybe we could understand his whole bag of emotions if we just gave him one chance to connect with us, he might appear irritating at first but then when you start understanding him you see that whenever you are falling of the cliff there is always a hand to bring you up.

What more can we ask for? All our life we search for somebody we can rely on, somebody we know who will stand behind us even when the winds of time are blowing against us. But we often look at the wrong place.

This maybe the dilemma of the person who is being cared about but what about the one, the one who cares, I feel they are the one who face greater misery. they care, they help and yet they often find themselves as second fiddle in all situations, it is often said when you care about somebody, you should not expect anything in return, but the human mind is inclined to think the other way. Even the wisest may feel that they deserve a minimal friendship in return of their feelings. I think this maybe the only negative shade in their character, though I think it maybe the most pivotal point of their character.

You know even after writing this I can see as a neutral judge more negative shades then positive in their characters, but I think it is the positive side which remains unexplored, so friends look around your best mate or companion might be standing round the corner!!!!!

taggy taggy tag part-2 !!!

Well lots of tag writing for now because the ideas of a new post are still swirling inside my head, so thanks Sheba for tagging me for the 15 books tag. I love books so it would be lovely to share some of the books I have read, here is the list which captivated my mind:-


1. Harry potter series by J.K.Rowling

At one point of time I thought it was my teenage fantasy which made me like Harry Potter, but no I think I fell for the lucid writing of J.K.Rowling which created Hogwarts castle and mounds of adventures in my mind, she will remain my favourite author because she pushed my imagination and made me a novel-addict.



2. The day after tomorrow by Allan Folsom

This sci-thriller has got such twists and turns that you won’t be able to let go of it. The author has brilliantly mingled some historical notions with modern science; I think it’s an interesting piece of work.



3. Lord of the rings by J.R.R.Tolkien

This saga written by Tolkien is the most interesting piece of fiction I have read, the man is a genius, created a whole new world, created a new language, he has intertwined fables with nature, when you read his book the next time you travel through a mountain or a forest you might feel a tinge of mystery around you. Lord of the rings is different; it’s a class apart, though fiction, the standards set by it are very high. A must read



4. Angels and demons by Dan Brown

I had the luck of reading this prequel of Da Vinci code before the sequel, if you love history, you will be amazed by the large dollops of historical information given in it. Dan Brown provokes you to question your beliefs. He has shaken the core of Christendom with this novel...



5. Artemis fowl by Eoin Colfer

Well we grow up listening to fairy tales from our parents. Just add some guns and high grade technology to the fairies and human beings. That in a way is Artemis Fowl for you, the sheer brilliance of the human brain and the high-end sci-fiction stuff are too potent a mixture and have been brilliantly shown by Eoin Colfer.



6. The complete adventures of Feluda by Satyajit Ray

Perhaps desi-Sherlock Holmes that's the perfect word to describe Feluda, while reading you might find sharp coincidences with Sherlock Holmes, but the desi flavour added by Satyajit Ray changes the scenario. It’s a delightful book and because I am a Bengali I know this Feluda is a household name in west Bengal. Good book :)



7. The Enchantress of Florence by Salman Rushdie

Well Mr. Rushdie writes a total different genre of fiction, this book takes us back into the royal household of Mughal Sultanate. I think the royal splendour of the Mughal court has been shown brilliantly. The book is a love story spread through seven lands and seas, and i am sure anyone who reads it will be captivated by it.



8. Inheritance of Loss by Kiran Desai

This booker price winning novel will enthral you with its beautiful captivating narration. Set in the planes of the Himalayas, the harsh realities of communist Nepal and the mind of a teenage girl comes into conflict with each other. It may be fiction but it contains a few realities.



9. Five point someone by Chetan Bhagat

The most fun-filled and humorous novel I have ever read. The book used to leave me in splits sometimes. Chetan Bhagat’s description of the neo-Indian is apt. I often read it whenever I think I need a dose of feel good factor.



10. The Last Mughal by William Darymple (non-fiction)

The revolt of 1857 and the Mughal sultanate, I think these two words are the most I can think of. The emotions William has put in this book are wonderful. I felt proud to be an Indian once more because of the history I am associated to!!!



11. The Godfather by Mario puzo

3 Hollywood movies have been devoted to this book and they all became cult classics. Needless to say mafia was immortalised by Mario puzo on the Godfather.



12. The famous five and the secret seven by Enid Blyton

This lady deserves some credit; she is a darling in the hearts of all the readers. Everybody has read these books sometime or the other so I don’t need to say how good
they are.



13. The midnight’s children by Salman Rushdie

The book brings out the true voice of India. I think this book shows salman at his best. Though am still reading it, its fast climbing the stairs of my favourite book.



14. The god of small things by Arundhati Roy

Arundhati Roy gives us a literary masterpiece. I have read many novels, but this book took a lot time to understand, I had to re-read it twice before I could rip open the Pandora’s Box of emotion she has put in it. It’s simply beautiful...


15. Hardy Boys by Franklin. W. Dixon

The hardy boys were the first novels I read. The sheer masculinity of the books was a thing I enjoyed, because at 13 or 14 every boy would like to become a macho man!!!

This finishes my list of 15 and I think I really enjoyed digging into the past and write about these novels...........they are masterpieces for me because like I said before they have helped me enjoy the world of imagination.........

taggy taggy tag!!!

Q: When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
A: I need a shave; the beard makes me look crooked!!!!

Q: How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
A: Rs. 500-600

Q: What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
A: Bore

Q: What is your favourite ring tone on your phone?
A: Nokia- connecting people :)

Q: Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
A: well have no 4th only one!!!

Q: What are you wearing right now?
A: jersey and Capri

Q: Do you label yourself?
A: depends on my mood.......

Q: Name the brand of the shoes you currently own?
A: Nike

Q: Bright or Dark Room?
A: well depends on what am doing.....

Q: What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
A: the most wela (useless) person, who has so much time to think of all this??

Q: What does your watch look like?
A: well it has got a large dial and silver metallic straps, its one of those man watches!!!

Q: What were you doing at midnight last night?
A: reading blogs, chatting with friends!!

Q: What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
A: deleted the whole bunch of messages right now

Q: What’s a word that you say a lot?
A: holy crap!!

Q: Who told you he/she loved you last? (Please exclude spouse, family, and children)
A: well it never will be HE, and as for she, god has told me “keep waiting dude!!!”

Q: Last furry thing you touched?
A: no, no, no and no, no furry things for me

Q: Favourite age you have been so far?
A: 15-17

Q: What was the last thing you said to someone?
A: was up dude??

Q: The last song you listened to?
A: diary of Jane from Breaking Benjamin

Q: Where did you live in 1987?
A: well I was gossiping with god in heaven!!!

Q: Are you jealous of anyone?
A: toddlers, they have all the time in the world...lol

Q: Is anyone jealous of you?
A: Nah.....

Q: Name three things that you have on you at all times?
A: clothes, mobile and umbrella (it rains a lot in manipal)

Q: What’s your favourite town/city?
A: Ahmedabad

Q: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
A: well 4 years back things weren’t exactly well between me and my best friend, so thought letter would do the job...

Q: Can you change the oil on a car?
A: well after engineering I will be able too......

Q: Your first love/big crush: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
A: well I threw her out of my life, to ignore the pain...

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my neck

Q: What is your current desktop picture?
A: band insignia of breaking Benjamin...

Q: Have you been burnt by love?
A: well yes and no shall do justice to this question!!!!

Here you go Shankar that should pretty much do the job......

happiness,life and god

Happiness, the word has a price tag attached to it. A price which will remain always be beyond the realm of human mind. The whole human race runs frantically behind happiness. I find it as precious as Holy Grail; everybody tries to find it to satisfy his or her fill of greed of happiness. But you ask a 10 year old kid or a seasoned 80 year old man they both will tell you the same thing, they wish happiness would be intertwined in every aspect of their life. But what exactly is the price of happiness?

The Greeks used to believe that a living body can't achieve the happiness until death. I am not advocating death over here to achieve happiness. People are often obsessed with afterlife or what should be their karma in order to obtain a place in heaven with their god. I don't blame the common man for being so obsessed. These days you will find the common man spending lump some amount on havans or other forms of worship to satisfy god. People are so busy reading the rules of bhagwad gita, bible and Quran that they forget the true meaning of the books.

What is the motive of all this? To have a good happiness filled life and spend the afterlife with god in heaven that's all? Maybe people should try and reach out the true meaning of those books. People in this frantic search for happiness are often surprised that these holy books only tell them what they already know. But think again are we truly upholding the meaning of these books. One of my friends told me a very simple thing," maybe you think of your life in a me-centric manner".

I am not one of the best believers around. But I believe there is something which created all this we have today, I don't wish to know what it is, but yah something is up there which made us. People have given it names some call him Jesus, some call him Allah. I call him creator. I won't say the holy books are a guideline from him. But maybe if we could derive the true meaning of those books, we could live in a state of truth rather than in a state of denial. I believe happiness is something which we shouldn't chase; rather we should wait for it to come to us.

I may sound confused but all I am saying is lets try to live a true good life, life which is lived for upholding the true values is 10 times better than life lived chasing a false dream.

Mystery of Solitude

Solitude is it good, is it bad? Most of us would say that it is bad, but I prefer solitude, it gives you freedom to think, the eerie nature of silence helps in breaking down the most complex of the problems, I do not disagree that solitude might make you depressed and anguished. Solitude sounds dark in nature, but it is like a dark tunnel which ends in bright light.

The pressure of daily life is enormous, it may get to you sometimes, so I feel the best way to get some respite is to get away from the entire hustle bustle and stay in solitude for sometime. To achieve a future image of the consequences of your action, solitude is the best solution. Solitude doesn’t have to be necessarily evil

I think to be strong in your weakest moments is a great virtue which can be achieved only by few. The state of solitude might sometimes bring out the worst in you. For some it might be fear, for some it might be boredom and the list is endless but those who conquer this never fail in life.

Think of it why do authors, scientists like to work alone, because in that moment of silence they try to create a world of their own and calculate infinite possibilities of their work. I myself have seen it, when am alone away from the crowd I often create a world of my own, the world of imagination, I think of the impossible and gain satisfaction. Our dear former president Dr. A.P.J.Kalam says it’s good to dream.

I don’t think everybody will agree to this dark thinking. But many would definitely feel that there is an uncanny coincidence between the article and their life. I feel what is dark may not necessarily be dark, because there is light even in the darkest corner of the earth.

The ambiguity of thoughts

Your action determines your character, is a well known proverb. But are thoughts nothing? Sometimes we are asked to think less and to work more, but then is that not the symptoms of a monotonous life.

Great thinkers like Voltaire, Chanakya changed the rules of the society, Isaac Newton discovered gravity beneath a tree, and Schrodinger made up a whole equation while sitting in his room. This proves that much of the human mind remains undiscovered. Society tends to create norms and people who think differently are shunned.

I have frequently observed brilliant sportsmen; actors and writers fade away into stereotype careers to earn daily bread and butter. But then manipulation of thoughts begins with birth, a child may say he wants to be air-force pilot one day and by the time he reaches high school he might end up saying that its better to be engineer or a doctor.

We need to develop thinking amongst the young. They need to learn about a world apart from the regular one. You never know which thought sparks a new revolution, thoughts were the core of the renaissance, and look what it gave us Da Vinci, Michelangelo and many more. They gave us such masterpieces that even today people look at them in awe.

The modern education was developed with the principle value of turning great thoughts into action, its sole desire was to have more of Tagores , Chandrashekhars in our country. But as time progressed younglings of our country buried their thoughts and immersed themselves into a stereotype routine.

“Dare to think different”, I think this should be promoted, it might solve many of our problems, like the unemployment caused by the recession.

Thoughts is a vast subject, it has no easy way to be unlocked. So maybe we should try to devote some of our time to understand it, people misunderstand thoughts, they forget massive powers like the laws of attraction are related to it.

Do not doubt your thoughts, give it a rational view, try and explore your thoughts, who knows what thought may change your life!!!!!

The World Of Novels

Blogging is a new hobby but reading books has been my hobby since fifth grade, and frankly for me there is no better past-time than reading books. I would like to thank and bless my English teacher of fifth grade who encouraged me to read books.

Of courses it was love at first sight. I just love reading; the words of Enid Blyton wove around in my mind a wonderful picture of imagination and possibilities. I loved it all and of course i was a teenager, every dream is true at that age. Well novels really formed an integral part of my life. Like a Christmas gift came Harry Potter. Boy!! J.K.Rowling really is a genius. The way she wrote was mind-boggling. I used to be so engrossed in reading the book that i used to lose track of time.

My parents were puzzled by the fact that there son couldn’t bring the same sincerity in his studies. But how do i explain to them the addiction of reading novels. As years passed by my imagination grew and i happily ruled over my kingdom of imagination.

I am indebted to great people like J.K.Rowling, J.R.R.Tolkien, Enid Blyton, Satyajit Ray, Jeffrey Archer and many more in honing my skills of imagination.

For a long time i hated non-fiction, it was one of those few self-assumed notions, i had in my teenage. But i thought of treading into this area last year. This genre of novels is truly enlightening. If fiction developed my imagination, non-fiction helped me in developing my thinking. I am still exploring this genre so i will have to wait to enjoy the fruits of them!!!!

I once read a story in which a man is kept imprisoned and is given only books to read. After the man is freed he is asked “how was your experience?” He replied,” I have eaten the most delicious cuisines, roamed the most beautiful places, danced and made love to the most beautiful ladies and fought wars alone. I have truly lived my lifetime through this books”

The jailer was truly dumbstruck. My friends’ novels have their own world, explore it and trust me you would never want to get away from it!!!!

INSECURITY-TRUST

Trust is a major issue. I don’t know about you guys but i feel there is a major scarcity of trust these days. Well everybody is befuddled by the issue of trust. This has lead to insecurity. Yes, insecurity, this simple word eats away the confidence of many a people like a worm. I know it’s a common topic but i think there should be a solution to it.

Okay let’s rotate the wheel of time 30 years back. Back then the child used to dutifully listen to his parents, marry the spouse they found him and lived happily after. Cut back to the present scenario, every small issue becomes a bone of discontent between parents and their child. You might say that this is only one type of insecurity, but i think according to an old saying if all is well at home, then all is well in your life.

What should be the reason???

Some might define it as a conflict between progressive thinking amongst the new generation and stagnant thinking by the older one. But then they score over us in many areas, like they have a better stability in life due to their stronger beliefs.


A very simple way to look at this is our belief in god. How many people do really visit temple this days, i am also a part of this crime, but i see my parents and other elder people visiting temple once a week. That’s belief and if you look around you will find many more issues similar to this.


I am not advocating the fact that we should return to the old manner of thinking, but maybe we could pick a leaf out of our older generation’s lives and bring some trust and security in our daily issues. I really want to be cent percent sure when i make a decision and feel secure like my parents and i feel everybody would like to do that.


Everybody would like a day when they don’t have to worry about their boss, a day when they won’t have to fight with their girlfriend/spouse, a day when they are able to trust a person with blind trust and a day when they can have a good night’s sleep.